Musings: Smile, like a Lightning

I once wondered why relationships shown in movies are so quiet. Why is the passion in the relationships depicted on the silver screen so... calm, collected, and clean. Where's the mess that makes a relationship real? It makes me reflect on the passion I love so much about my relationship.


The first impression you get, is that of passion. And not just from the heat radiating off her speech. It comes off in the intensity in her eyes, which sharpen and cut almost as deep as her words. There is a clarity, a sense of self that gives her arguments the weight of her person. Eyes like those are a weapon. Some in the olden ages have waxed poetry about those kinds of expressive eyes - but I would never describe her as doe eyed. If anything, they are the eyes of a tigress on the hunt. They see you, through your words, through every facade you have built up, searching for that truth you hide so deep, you convince yourself of the lie.

The intelligence shines through after a moment, but by then it's too late. She's latched on to the truth you were hiding, and all you've got yourself for defence are feeble counter arguments. You know you've lost before anyone else does. But like a tigress, she isn't ruthless. There's that quirk of a smile that says she knows she's won. A smile, like a flash of lightning, there and gone, like a fleeting memory. And yet, exactly like a lightning, it is blinding, and you've already given in and forgotten to keep up appearances of arguing. It's a disarming smile, but it's more than that. It is a smile that conveys reconciliation, an invitation to move on. And like any parched traveler in the middle of a desert, you drink it in, and wrap yourself in fantasies of how you barely escaped.

From time to time, you try to remember the actual content of the argument, and dream up responses you could have come up with to turn the tide, but by then you don't have the heart to revisit it - because you know the result is a foregone conclusion - not in terms of defeat, but in terms of reconciliation, and a loving embrace. Because the arguments you have with her are not about the content. When you are as passionate as us, you can find something new to debate and argue about on a daily basis. Plus when you're addicted to that smile, you could be accused of picking fights just to see it when she wins.